It’s been a busy weekend. Another longest ride (so far), yardwork, meeting and discussing art and the creative process with friends, laundry. Then it rolled right into the 1st of a new month. The first week of the month is my busiest time. Reports to go audit, files to upload, I always feel rush even when I’m not. The first day of the month is the worst because I put so much pressure on myself to power through it all. When the first day of the month falls on a Monday when I have a zoom book group discussion and need to leave work early to make a women’s bike ride triple that pressure.

I’ve noticed I’m sleeping less. I’m staying up later to get things done in the evenings that get pushed aside because other things need to be done as well. I’m relying more on coffee and caffeine.

I feel like I’ve accomplished more but at what price? I’m a bit light headed, I’m always wanting to take a nap, I’m slipping on healthy eating habits choosing junk food for quick energy and crashing.

Today I’m pausing and resetting my schedule.