We’re approaching the end of the month and the last few days of Dedicate – Yoga with Adriene. I’ve experienced some good days and more challenging days on the mat, but on “Drop” I couldn’t finish the video.
I have retrocalcaneal bone spurs that have caused bursitis. A large one my right heel and a smaller one developing on my left. Then 1 ½ years ago I broke my right foot. 6 weeks in a walking boot cast cause my left knee to get a bit weird. And I have a bit of arthritis. I’ve never felt my age as much as I do with my ankles and knee.
Drop had a lot of standing and balancing positions. I can do them for a bit, but one-legged downward dog, with my weight on my right foot wasn’t not going to happen no matter how much I peddled through my heel.
I stopped the video, frustrated with myself for being in pain, and cried on my yoga mat.
The theme of the day was Drop something that doesn’t serve you. I wasn’t dropping anything but holding on to it as my identity. The girl with the bone spurs, the girl who walks with a limp until I stretch out or my body no longer registers the sensation of pain.
I skipped the next day “Power” because I decided I needed to embrace self-care and give my ankles a rest day. I returned this morning with “Dedicate”, luckily no downward dogs or balancing poses. I feel back on track again. I guess I wasn’t technically off track, just pulled into a depot for a few days for repairs.
I don’t expect this to be the only lesson I learn on the mat. Just the first of many.